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We wrapped rice dumplings together yesterday. I mean Mojuju was never interested in making traditional food so he took the job of sourcing the ingredient and boiling water. Ya knooo the menial jobs 🀣

Lil’Tuesday and Mr Monday cleaned up all the leaves and also helped out *a little* with the wrapping. They very quickly went to play dragon boat race with our kitchen furniture πŸ˜…

It’s been awhile since I made it, so the taste aren’t the best. But dumplings are dumplings. How bad can it be? It’s just a little less salt than normal. I’m impressed that after so many years of not making them that I was still able to wrap them up neatly. Nothing fell apart or came out during boiling process.

Making dumpling reminds me of my grandma. It’s funny that I never actually made it with my grandma before, or even seen her do it. But she used to do them when my mom was young, and it’s from the story of my mom that I know about it. Mom actually doesn’t make rice dumplings. She doesn’t know how 🀣🀣🀣.

A lot of the tradition that I try to do with the kids aren’t actually my family tradition. I guess, I hoped for as a child, but mom never had much interest in tangie traditions, but more on intangible values which is equally important.

But I really want my children to have good childhood memories to look back to. Maybe one day when it’s dragon boat festival when they are far away, they will reminisce making dumplings back home. And maybe, just maybe, that will fill their heart with just a little warmth when they are far from home. ❀️

This month we had two major incidents with fire, and I feel that we should spread the word.

We never ever had such issues but it seems that our old cable extensions are aging? The first incident was pretty stupid. As I was cleaning Mojojo second tank, I turned off the socket with an extension which I thought, (and it should be) where all his aquarium devices were hooked up. Another socket was for our cctv, which for some dumb reason Mojojo decided to unplug it and hook his tank heater on.

I took the heater out, placed it on the floor, not knowing it was slowly heating the flooring.

We woke up at night to our smoke alarm blaring and the aquarium hall filled with smoke! It took the heater nearly 12hour to start actually burning the floor. How insidious!!

Thank god for smoke alarm guys. Please, make sure your alarm is working after you read this!!

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Please don’t let me be I’ll anytime soon.

GUYSSS I WAS REALLY ILLLLLLL OMGGGG. the headache was horrendous that I actually bothered my own doctor. Had sumatriptan. Then went back and have amitryptyline.

I honestly never thought I’d need amitryptyline. πŸ˜‚ It’s like a middle aged meds for neuropathic pain or something. 😭😭😭 I always prescribe them but taking them for myself is seriously a life lesson.

Nevermind the drowsiness but man my ectopics was coming out of my chest!!

Thanks to that I went and bought myself a Galaxy Ring after seeing one of our close friend have it. Well at least I will get an alert if I go into AF!

But everything is much better now so I actually don’t take the ami no more. No thank you. Such a nasty drug. Ughhhhhhh.

Since my pneumonia resolve (or resolving) I think I might have caught another bug from possibly my sister.

I started having a full blown viral rash all over. It’s kinda scary, looks a bit like measles. But I’m vaccinated since I was a baby so I don’t think it’s possible. Rubella is possible I guess but they are normally self limiting on adults.

Some of the rash actually turned non blanching. And I started having fever again. My BFF initially joked that I might have meningitis, and now I really think I MIGHT have viral meningitis.

Other than the headache, nausea and vomiting and some mild fever, I’m alright though. I’m just exhausted. If I saw a patient with my symptoms I might actually admit them for further investigation. But aren’t healthcare worker the worst patients?

I’m not as bad. I actually did see my GP today. Sadly I wasn’t even examined despite it being a face to face appointment. I’m being treated for migraine instead. I’m a strong believer in art of clinical examination, and when the doctor wasn’t going to examine me, I gave up in the consultation already.

It’s quite nice having rosey cheeks though without make up. Yes my head is burning like a furnace, BUT AT LEAST I LOOK CUTE? πŸ˜‚πŸ”₯

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I haven’t been updating because I have been AGAIN unwell for the last 2 weeks.

I swear God is trying to show me that I am wrong. I always say that it’s NOT that easy to get a chest infection / community acquired pneumonia especially when you’re young health person. It’s likely viral, and no you don’t need antibiotics.

Jeng jeng jeng, and hence God shows me otherwise. I started coughing a lot; and my medical brain obvsly just say ‘IT’S VIRAL’. Then I got severe migraine the week after and I actually throw up multiple times a day. For a moment I was actually convinced I might be pregnant.

Thank God I’m not huhu.

I was struggling so much at work that my reception girlie told me to book an appointment with my GP to get some sumatriptan and antisickness for my migraine. I never needed one. I do get migraines, but it usually goes away quite easily with some NSAIDS. But I listened because I’m an angel good gurl right?

My baby sister followed me to my appointment while Mojuju brought the kids to swimming classes. The kids were behaving really well knowing I was ill. Well it turned out that my L side of my lower lobe was all crackly.

Suddenly it all makes sense. The fever I started getting. The super productive cough I couldn’t stop. The ache I got on my L side of my back which I thought was (lol) viral.

Ok I got it now. It’s not that hard to get pneumonia. Thanks for the lesson. Please let me recover now. Also yes I now know how bad photosensitivity side effect is from doxycycline.

Other than that, we actually had a special guest last month in our house!!!

Say hi to Patrick!!! He’s my BFF Pip’s doggy who was staying with us for half a week while his owner goes to Disneyland. He’s such a good boy and follows commands very well. No trashing the house, no barking, no eating our pet chickens either. I think he’s so well trained! Well I definitely cannot train any dog haha.

Sad to say Chibi wasn’t very impressed. She hated having a dog in the house. She hisses at him — and he’s such a sweetheart just staring at her. NAUGHTY CHIBI! Oh but she did not at all swipe him or anything. Just walks away from him half the time haha.

I was actually hoping that looking after Patrick will turn off Mojuju and the kids from wanting to have a dog. (think all the walks you need to do and the poops you have to pick up). Unfortunately, Patrick was way too good and now they want a dog even more….

I really can’t handle more animals in this farm.

It’s only been a week since I started my new job. Working 2 days a week has been a life changer.

Everyone agrees being a housewife is hard. But no one ever mention how being a working mom is even harder. Not because going to work is hard, no of course. Infact going to work is a much easier time. The problem is when you’re expected to do everything a housewife does, right after you get home from work. How does any working mom manage to complete all the housework in 3 hours before bedtime is beyond me.

But hey that was how I was living. Mojuju constantly get on my nerves by not offering me any help, or even help me when I actually asked. But this year, everything suddenly shifted.

He’s working less days, and is helping me out so much. He even noticed that I wasn’t eating dinner today and made me oatmeal: it’s his magic oatmeal. Everytime I’m ill or just depressed, his oatmeal somehow would cheer me up. He’s been treating me like a damn queen since I went back to visit my parents for a month. In all honesty, I think he’s making me fall in love with him again everyday. Don’t tell him that though, because he’d get too proud. 🀣

Now, the laundry are slowly being demolished, all nicely folded by noon. Family time in the park. He even planned out a picnic with sushi and everything. He fed me with his impressive chopstick skills while we watched our kids cycling and screaming happily chasing each other. The house has never been so tidy before.

I even repotted my plants and managed to finish not ONE but TWO books!

If time could stop, I wish it does right now. I don’t think our home has been filled with this much laughter and love, or me enjoying my time instead of just surviving. The journey has been tough and difficult, but I guess we made it.

I need to repaint our home and replace all the wallpapers, and maybe revive our tiny vegetable farm; but I’m just taking my time. For now, my nose is stuck in my books. I have completely forgotten how fond I am towards books and mysteries, and how much my fingers missed the soil.

Today is my first day at work in my new workplace, as a fully qualified ****** (why do we need to sensor this? I mean everyone knows I’m a doctor).

We celebrated my qualification on Saturday with a Japanese buffet meal with our friends from Birm! It was about 2 hours drive but it was definitely worth it though.

Princess Tuesday and I obviously dressed up to the nines. I even used the sarong that my grandmother always worn (pattern, not the physical thing sadly) as my selendang / scarf. We had SO MUCH FOOD. I mean it’s buffet, and it’s Japanese. The kids had so much sushi and sashimi that I think their swimming skills must have leveled up. I also got to cuddles with our friend’s newborn (5m). He is so teeny tiny and reminded me of when Mr. Monday was also teeny tiny.

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How was everybody’s Chinese New Year? We had an amazing one. Or at least I did. ( ΛΆΛ†α—œΛ†Λ΅ ) So apparently there was this heated debate on Tiktok about whether it should be CNY or Lunar New Year that I completely missed out. Qyuni my sister told me about it… Seriously these days people care about the least important thing in the world. I’m so glad I’m not involved with Tiktok because half the things I hear from it is just absolutely a waste of time and energy.

The reason why I updated so late after CNY was because I have been busy preparing for my CCT aka completion of training. I’ve finally completed my training for my specialty after SO MANY YEARS. (,,>﹏<,,) I truly don’t regret at all taking this long to finish, despite not having any extension time added to my training. It was because of maternity leave and working less than full time. Β―_(ツ)_/Β― But at the end of the day, it made me a more mature trainee. As my supervisor mentioned 2 years ago when she took me in, her priority was never to improve my clinical knowledge or skills, but more of preparing me to be more resilient to stress and pressure. ( ‒̯́ ₃ β€’Μ€Μ―) I’m really glad because I feel that with her guidance I am now a more confident person, not just as a doctor. I am able to put down boundaries and to not shy away from difficult conversations. α•™( β€’Μ€ α—œ ‒́ )α•—

Last year, CNY was slightly depressing for me. Mojuju never used to celebrate CNY much with his family so it wasn’t really a big deal for him. But it was for my family. Having two very different upbringing was so difficult. But as I have mentioned, I have came a long way from just trying to do everything on my own and then building resentment and burnout, to actually putting down boundaries and have difficult conversations that need to happen. This year we worked so well as a team to get CNY ready ( κˆβ—‘κˆ). We had an amazing reunion dinner on CNY eve – which was customary to my family.

We made the lousang above together, unlike previous years before where I was doing everything myself because he wasn’t sure what to do. We were such a great team <3 seriously. The lousang was SO DELICIOUS because it is literally made with the freshest ingredients you can ever imagined. (Compared to the premade rubbish in a box you get from Malaysia lol). <(ꐦㅍ _ㅍ)>.

For those who doesn’t know, CNY eve night is typically called reunion dinner in Chinese. It is where families from all over the country (not across the country lol) come home to have a meal in their parents home. It’s sad that our parents couldn’t join us, especially when my parents are so hardworking to work throughout CNY week and Mojuju father unfortunately isn’t ready to fly such a distance (we did invite him (β•₯﹏β•₯) but it’s okay we will see him soon this year).

I however invited JayJay from work because he was like a brother to me. EVERYONE WANT TO SET UP HIM WITH MY SISTER— I just think it’s not great pushing things… things should happen naturally if it’s meant to be ya know… 𓁹‿𓁹. Anyhow he didn’t have reunion dinner this year so all of us at home felt that the more the merrier!!

Mr Monday had such a fun time with JayJay
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How are you guys doing? You know while I was in Malaysia for 3 weeks I was fairly impressed with my immune system the entire time. I mean I wasn’t ill… no colds… just some allergies; nothing anti histamine can’t fix.

I came back to the U.K. and in less than 2 weeks I fall ill again. (Thanks useless WCC). You may think that maybe my neurophils are a little useless because of autoimmune neutropaenia. But actually I am more sus about my lymphocytes… I have been literally bounded to my bed all day yesterday with my baby sister Qyuni looking after Mr. Monday and Lil’Tuesday. I genuinely was struggling until she came home from uni. Lil’Tuesday was LITERALLY pulling my eyelids open every minute or so telling me not to fall asleep (˚ ΛƒΜ£Μ£Μ₯βŒ“Λ‚Μ£Μ£Μ₯ )

A lot of you have been asking me did I enjoy my time back home / how was my holiday. So I think I should expand a little on it.

Continue reading “Holy Moly it’s already almost the end of January!” →
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